Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Who is it really about?

Look at the picture she just peeked out and showed her face, after hiding. She is smiling, this is the best picture we have so far. Without having to pay $135.00 for the 3D or 4D imaging
I can wait to see her but What a joy!! It's just her face and shoulders, so don't be writing saying I can't see her!


We have been praying and asking God for guidance, because although my early experience at the doctor's office was good, I began to wake up out of dreams that wasn't too settling for me. I talked to Rick about it and he would pray with me and I pushed past what I was feeling at that time. How many know that really doesn't work. When you are not comfortable with something, that is your inner sense that God gave you to take a good look at what is important. In this case, Kendall is the most important person right now. Of course I'm important too because I'm the mom but she can't fend for herself and she needs us to protect her. Well I have been feeling like I haven't been getting the first time mom experience. Where you want to know that you are being heard and that any concern that you might have is being addressed. I have been wanting to change to another doctor since my 19th week ultrasound. Ladies please follow your heart, I followed my excitement to get the ultrasound done and not by what I was feeling. Who is it really all about? It's about the best care that you can get for your baby, it's about the health and the welfare of you as the mother. I hope that me being candid about my feelings will help someone that is struggling with a pregnacy, or about having a baby period.
Please don't get me wrong I've had the best pregnacy, no morning sickness, a couple of times feeling queezy, nothing beyond that. I have seen some changes in my body, it's to be expected I'm carrying another human being in my body, a living, breathing person who is very active and has a personality already.
I LOVE IT!!!!! She makes this noise that we can't figure out what it is but it's when she is hungry or don't want to sleep and wants to play. We took a flashlight the other night to see if she would follow it, she did and kept kicking me for most of the night, I don't know if she was getting me back or it just kept her awake. Note to self and others, do it earlier in the day if you want to sleep.
Back to who it's all about I found another doctor, the doctor that I think that I was suppose to be going to in the first place. It is a busier clinic but the doctors are really good, each one of them, its four docs in total and you have to see each one because you don't know who will deliver your baby. I have had great success with all of them, very cordial, concerned about you and the baby, they ask you questions as well as you being able to talk to them which I had a problem with before.
You have a right to ask anything pertaining to what is going to be happening to you, or to your child. There is no way that you should feel like you don't have a voice, ask questions, research information and most of all pray about everything although they are doctors, they don't have the final authority on anything in your life....God is the final authority for everything in your life!!!! Be blessed.

2 comments:

Breona said...

I love reading your blog, Benita! You are such an encouragement to me and I just had to say, publicly, how much I love and appreciate you.

Amanda said...

Awww!!! Look at her grinning! I have never seen a baby smile before on an ultrasound! You can tell she is going to be a happy baby!